REFLECTIONS FROM LAST NIGHT…
Last night I had a rough time sleeping. The intensity of the moon was haunting me and strange feelings and deep anxiety was rising within me. I was faced with truths about myself that I have done a wonderful job hiding over the years. Like my fear of my finances and my propensity to overspend or frivolously spend.
As this was coming up I reached for my phone and typed in any meditation music. I found this song Nataraja by Jai Uttal. I didn’t know what Nataraja meant, so I looked it up:
“Nataraja (The King of Dance), is a depiction of the Hindu God Shiva as the cosmic dancer who performs his divine dance (called Tandavam) to destroy a weary universe and prepare for its renewal, by the god Brahma who starts the process of creation.”
AS THE MUSIC PLAYED I FELT MY HEART OPENING. The intense green color of my heart chakra spread over me.
I felt the DANCE of the universe, of all beings, of the moon and stars and galaxies as they turn and swirl.
“The purpose of [Shiva’s] dance is to release the souls of all men from the snare of illusion. The place of the dance, Chidambaram, which is portrayed as the center of the universe, is actually within the heart.
Dancing is seen as an art in which the artist and the art s/he creates are one and the same, thought to evoke the oneness of God and creation.”
I realized that what I was creating, all that I have been creating is actually ME, and the universe, and creation, and creativity, and oneness, and completion, and wholeness, and the heaviness of the moon.
I was feeling his dance. This dance. This world. This thread that binds us all together.
Swirling in infinity.