I suck at them.
I generally get overly anxious, the room might squeeze in around me and my palms will probably start to sweat.
Eventually I will forget to breathe and then all I hear is my heart beat.
The exam or test is just staring me down. Challenging me.
I will start tapping the pencil like a woodpecker against the desk.
With my heart beat increasing I now start to wonder if I am having a heart attack.
Wait, no, I am definitely having a heart attack.
It’s getting dark.
This is it, perhaps I should write my last will and testament on this exam. Perhaps these are my final moments.
I can do this.
And then I look around at everyone else. Diligently working.
Ok forget them. Focus on you.
Back to the grind.
I turn the exam over and begin.
Exams are kind of like life.
It is all about your reaction, it is about what you choose to focus on, it is about breathing, it is about excrement, it is about joy, love, hate, depression, expression, the highs and the lows.
And all along all we can do is breath.
And all you can do during an exam is do your best.
If your best is not good enough then you either try harder next time or you move on.
I was watching MSNBC this weekend and this guy came on as a guest. He is a multimillionaire at the age of 29.
And he didn’t have to take test!
Gurbaksh Chahal dropped out of school at the age of 16 to become an entrepreneur. He started up BlueLithium (later bought by Yahoo for $300 million), Clickagents (later bought for $40 million) and, most recently, Radium One, a platform for social media advertising.
The dude made his OWN test.
The dude knew what he wanted so he just went and got it.
Lately I have been feeling the pressure. Feeling the Gods testing me.
At first I reacted the way I usually react.
Trying to claw my way out.
Putting myself down until I couldn’t get up.
But if YOU don’t believe in yourself then who will?
So now I am standing on my own two feet.
I’m ready for the test.
I’m ready for whatever life might bring.
I cannot control the future.
I can only live right now.
Write my name on the top of the exam.